by Jennifer Wasik for her son Zachary
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But God can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can He replied
With confidence in His voice,
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand God
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
What you child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say...
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear
My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see dear sweet one
Your children are ok.
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons through.
And on the day that you come home,
They'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Though some of earth may not realize
Until their time is done.
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are a Special Mom!
by Christine Hoos for Noah 6/3/99
No sleepless nights, no 3 a.m. feedings
No good night kiss or storybook readings
No birthday cake in the shape of a car
No camping out and no wishing on stars
No trips to the zoo, no learning to skate
No "wash you hands mister", no "clean your plate"
No chicken pox, no meet the teacher nights
No best buddies, no sleepovers, no fights
No play dough, no pictures on the fridge door
No weekly allowance, no rules, no chores
No action figures all over the place
No reading about dinosaurs, bugs or space
No grass stains on elbows, no holes in the knees
No reminder to say "thank you" and "please"
No hockey try-outs, no rides to the mall
No band-aids and kisses after a fall
No calls to Grandma, no Father's Day card
Being your Mommy is so very hard!
I wish I had known you for just a day
To have held you before you went away.
I miss you - your face, your laughter, your touch...
I feel cheated, I am missing so much!
I miss your childhood - it would have been fun!
And I miss the man you would have become.
I'm missing a lifetime of memories.
When all the moms talk - I've got no stories.
I've got only dreams of how it would be
And wishes that you were still here with me.
I will spend my whole life thinking of you;
Loving you so much and missing you too!
Being your Mommy has brought me such pain,
But you were worth it - I'd do it again!
Author Unknown
Oh Mother, my Mother
I touch your tears
invisible fingers
soothing your skin
I know you think of me so often
in the day, in the night,
in your dreams
going into an empty nursery
knowing I'll never be there
but I am....in your heart
in your soul, I shall always be
for you gave so unselfishly
of yourself.
Inside of you, you created
such a world of laughter, of love,
of sadness, of sorrow
every emotion people come to know
you shared with me.
And even though I may never
fell your arms around me
I felt your heart beating,
like a lullaby, singing me to sleep
and your spirit giving me a safe haven
already protecting me
nurturing me
preparing me of things to come.
But sometimes the journey
of life pulls souls apart
and yes, I had to go on
to another place.
I wish I could stay
I wish this was a decision
I could make
and I know you do too.
Know this wherever you are:
I will always remember
that yours was the first love
the first joy, the first soul
I will ever know
you gave me the courage to
go on in my journey
I hope I can do the same for you
your heart beat will always
call me to you.
Love, your child
