by Elizabeth Dent
Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further,
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry,
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing,
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing,
I feel it will take a lifetime.
by Gail Fasolo
This day will be a celebration
of the short time you were here.
You will always be remembered
with great love and sometimes tears.
But only to feel pain and sorrow
Would not be quite fair to you.
Your life meant much more to me
More than I ever knew.
You were here so briefly
I wonder if you know
All the ways you've touched my world
Since the day God called you home.
Now, my child, you're an angel
With your heavenly Father above.
I see not only what I've lost
But my capacity of love.
There will always be a big void
My soul will grieve forever.
Will I forget to stop loving you?
No, not now...not ever.
As this day is upon me
Oh!
How my heart still hurts
But even as I mourn your death
I celebrate your birth.
by Carrie Sines on 1/5/00 for Ashley Marie 10/29/97
Late at night when all is done
And your sister is in her crib.
I look around this big quiet house
And wonder what would have been.
Some say that it was for the best
And maybe it is true.
But what about those long lonely nights
When all I want is you.
I had so many dreams for you
Hope and aspirations.
But in a moment all was gone
All those months of anticipation.
The doctor said, "There is no chance."
Mommy and Daddy cried.
"I'm sorry...there's no heartbeat."
As he stifled his own cries.
His eyes were wet and my hands were shaky
As he handed you to me.
You looked so tiny and beautiful
Like a delicate new lily.
I held you close in my arms
Taking everything about you in.
The sweet smell of your still warm form
The texture of your skin.
Happiness to see you
But the pain of knowing the end.
I prayed to God and bargained
But it wasn't in his plan.
I knew you had to leave us
I knew you had to go.
I memorized each little part
From your head down to your toes.
Your tiny fingers that never curled
Your lips that never smiled.
Your sweet eyes that never opened
Nor hands that waved bye-bye.
It's been two years since you have gone
But I can feel your presence.
I know you're safe and play each day
With the other Angels in Heaven.
So on those nights when the house is quiet
I sit back and try to imagine.
The little girl who graced my life
The one who made me a parent.
You would be two years old now
A chatter box no doubt.
The apple of her Mommy's eye
And Daddy's little girl.
You'd be a Mommy's helper
And Daddy's little buddy.
And when it comes to your little sister
Well, she would think you're funny.
I close my eyes and imagine this
As a tear trickles down my cheek.
I look around and you're not here
My arms are still empty.
Once again I remember
You're no longer here.
Once again my heart breaks
Bringing back a flood of tears.
You are safe in the arms of Jesus
Where you'll never feel any pain.
He'll guide you and He'll teach you
And He'll play your favorite games.
He'll tuck you in your bed at night
And wish you pleasant dreams.
You're in the Kingdom
The Golden Palace
Holding the Heavenly Father's hand.
What more could a Mother want
You're in the Promised Land.
